Speak now or forever remain silence.......

When I speak, I am accused of being not cooperative. When I do not speak, I am accused as being angry. 

I know what I should do.

I need to speak out, my rights as

1. the mother of my youngest son, who is looking after him.

2. the mother who are currently not able to protect him from

a) the system, that only listen to the

i) counsel of abuser, promoting abuser to have access 

ii) counsel of children, that keeps recommending access of abuser to the child

Emotionally, it is very draining, I have to stand alone to speak.